The Journal of Morathak
Calennor,
Paurdor of the Quentari
ArmiesMay 25th to July 31st Thloestel
191
Dearest Shaellorin,
As per your request, I will be keeping this Journal in
the little book that you gave me upon our parting. I am going to write
as though it were a missive to you. It makes it easier to pretend that
I am only away for a little while, writing you love notes as I while away
the hours ‘til our reunion. If nothing else it shall be an amusing record
of my participation in, “The Little Human War,” as Ryfellyn calls it.
I know that
you do not agree with my going to war with the others, but I am determined
to be a part of this, even if His Majesty had not asked me. My Lord Thloestel
might have allowed me to stay, if I had refused, of course, but, and I
hope that you will forgive me for this, I wanted to go. My opinion on humans
and their politics, no matter what Ryfellyn may say, is no more forgiving
than the next elf’s, but the way Sir Lathaeon spoke, I felt the pain of
his people. The attacks of the goblin folk, as well as their elemental
allies, is more than simply human politics. This is a fight to preserve
the sanctity of our world, and I must be part of it. I must see this through.
Even if Sir
Lathaeon hadn’t convinced me with his words, My Lord Thloestel intends
me to go. He has been my liege, my patron, my mentor, and my friend for
over two hundred years, and if he wishes me to go, I will go. I know that
Ryfellyn will try to convince you that I obey him because he replaces you
in my heart, but you must believe me when I say that I love you with everything
that is in my heart, mind, body and soul. No space between us can lessen
that, no matter how many the miles. I can only hope that you will remain
faithful to me, for I will be faithful to you until My Final Death.
So be it then.
Let this page remind me of what I will return to, and fate grant that I
shall live to deliver this Journal to your hands.
In Strongest Love,
Morathak
Loa Thloestel 191, the 25th of May
Day One- May 26th
It seems important
to note here that I am Morathak Calennor, Paurdor of the Quentari Armies.
With me goes my good friend Lord Jhiakyn Thalasylior, master of the art
of Blade-Dancing. Along with us ride Lady Shavyllaine Calaharia, Lord Graesonarion
Mafisyr, and the most esteemed Lady Namarieao Vassyrallisa, Wizard of Light
and Darkness. We have brought an army of some one thousand elves, soldiers
and concerned citizenry alike, to the aid of the humans to the southeast.
Sir Lathaeon D’Venwyn, former knight to the late King Dasavion VI of Zhaffiria,
has been leading us to Danrayin, kingdom of King Danwyn, who has already
pledged to aid Lathaeon’s cause.
We have been
passing through some very pretty country, green fields and amber meadows,
dotted by a few well-tended copses of fruit-bearing trees. With the smell
of the fruit blossoms in the spring breeze, and the golden bright in an
endless blue sky, it is difficult to believe that a war could be threatening
this peaceful place. These lands are as I said, called Danrayin, a city-state
ruled by King Danwyn VI, our host, who is called, “The Bull” by his lieutenants
and soldiers. I believe that the nickname is affectionate. If not, he gives
no sign of talking offense.
The nickname
is very apt. I sat with Lord Jhiakyn upon one of the so called “alliance
councils” between our folk and the humans, and King Danwyn sat nearly opposite
us. He is a tremendously large human! If he is less than seven feet tall,
it cannot be by much. His broad shoulders and neck suggest that he would
be more comfortable wearing a yoke than a crown. At that council, we discussed
the possibility of bringing dwarvenkind into the folds of our slowly growing
union. Apparently some dwarves live in the mountains near here, and the
prospect of allying with them had been broached before. Crisis indeed to
have to ally with those stiff-necked folk, but the humans seemed quite
keen on the idea, and Jhiakyn allowed that such skilled metalworkers would
be invaluable during this time of war. I saw no recourse but to agree,
despite my own personal feelings about the burrowers.
Afterwards
we saw some of the humans engaged in some of their training exercise. La,
but King Danwyn looked quite the bull indeed! Stripped to the waist he
looked more like some farm animal than any kind of man. His soldiers clearly
dote upon him, for he can beat them all in a wrestling match. He teases
Jhiakyn and I for our smaller stature and slight build, referring to us
as the “little birds”. Jhiakyn almost challenged him to honor combat on
the spot, but thankfully Jhiakyn relies on my patience to guide him. I
called him back before he could so much as call insult upon the big braggart.
Jhiakyn returned, though I am certain I heard him muttering, ”If I ever
catch him alone...”
We have eaten
well this night, though the table manners of humans are enough to offend
a buzzard. A succulent kind of bird lives in the brush of this land (some
kind of game-hen, I think, and quite fleet of foot.) We were served several,
spitted and roasted with herbs. A wild dog watched us eat with something
resembling jealousy and thwarted pride. Perhaps he himself had been trying
to catch the birds. In sympathy I tossed the poor fellow some bones, and
he seemed content to drag them off and gnaw on them. Quite human,
in a way... La, but no, I must recall that they are our allies, and indeed,
hosts at this time. At least they make good wine.
King Danwyn
was just looking over my shoulder, examining my entry. Thankfully, I have
been writing in our tongue, not his, and he simply asked me what it said.
I told him that it praised his hospitality, and the beauty of the local
terrain. He seemed quite pleased with that. I must be careful of what I
write. Someday, a human who reads our script will look over my shoulder,
and then where would I be? From here on out, I shall not make any ungracious
comments about our allies, if I can avoid it.
Day Two- May 27th
I am constantly
being reminded of the differences between our peoples. This morning, we
woke bright and early to the sound of martial trumpets and fell out to
inspect King Danwyn’s troops with him. What a glorious sight! Full one
thousand men in matching red tabards, their helmet plumes bright and fresh,
their swords newly polished. Despite the glory of it, I found it slightly
disturbing. The humans have such a different approach to war and soldiering
than we do. Where our people so value our uniqueness, even when in units
of soldiery, the humans seem to revel in their conformity. But for their
faces, they might have all been the same men and women, rank after rank.
They were virtually indistinguishable in their uniforms. It is plain that
this must be to either baffle the enemy into thinking that it kept fighting
the same soldiers over and over again, or to make the enemy’s spies so
bored with counting the same uniform over and over that they finally lose
count or give up.
Still there
is something inspiring in the sight of so many, dressed so alike, and with
such unity of purpose. It is almost like watching a single entity, undulating
across the parade field, its tendrils suddenly bristling with pikes or
bows, utterly repellent, yet also singularly fascinating to behold. My
days of training my own soldiers in no wise prepared me for the sight.
Some of them are so young, especially by our standards as to be barely
more than children. King Danwyn reminds me that this is a time of war,
and no one who wishes to join the army will be turned away.
There is one
young soldier, a bare-faced lad, who could barely be more than a score
of years who keeps watching me. I wonder if he has ever seen an elf before?
There is something voyeuristic in being here before him. His eyes stare
at me as though I had ten heads and breathed fire. I must remember to ask
Sir Lathaeon what the average human believes of us. I would not want to
smile at the boy and have him think that I am about to go for his throat.
Lord Jhiakyn
and I, along with the soldiers we have brought, were invited to join in
the human soldiers exercises, which consist of beating one another senseless
with ill-padded wooden weapons weighted with lead cores. I was facing sir
Lathaeon, and I believe that he gave a good acquittal of himself, for all
that I have been a soldier sine his grandparents were in diapers. Lord
Jhiakyn was matched against “The Bull” himself, and I feared that the great
hulking brute might damage my poor friend. I had nothing to worry
about, of course. I forget sometimes what a proficient blade-dancer Lord
Jhiakyn is. He simply stepped out of the way of each of the thick-necked
giant’s blows, stepping in to deliver a gentle tap of his own, now and
again. Finally, “the Bull,” frustrated, threw down his sword and stalked
off. Sir Lathaeon offered us his apologies for the king’s behavior, then
went to comfort the angry monarch. Meanwhile Lord Jhiakyn asked Tairaninan,
one of our captains, to help him demonstrate the Blade-dance. When the
humans saw that my friend intended to duel his captain with live steel
the silence was thicker than the smell of their ill-washed bodies.
I have spoken
to you often beloved, of my awe for Lord Jhiakyn’s mastery of the two hundred
and seventy forms of the blade-dance. If I have ever told you of his grace,
his control and his skill, my words could not have conveyed the amazement
we all felt to watch Jhiakyn now. I had grown used to watching the slower,
clumsy movements of our hosts, and to see an elf of such unparalleled excellence
dance our ancient martial art was like watching the finest dancer on the
stage, or to hear an aria sung by the finest contra-tenor of The Homeland.
It was art, in the purest sense of the word, and I was struck as silent
as the humans watching him dance the deadly dance once again. Captain Tairaninan
fought well, but it was like watching a duel between an ogre and a toddler.
There was never any doubt as to who would eat whom, as it were. When Lord
Jhiakyn reached inside the captain’s guard and nicked his cheek, we all
exhaled a collectively held breath. The captain bowed and left the field,
and the soldiers cheered my old friend’s victory. Even “the Bull “ who
had returned at word of the “marvelous game” forgot his anger. He felt
no shame in being unable to hit Lord Jhiakyn when he saw how truly skilled
he is. I think he had forgotten that despite our youthful appearance, we
are many times his seniors. I think that he has learned not to underestimate
us. Now, if he would only stop calling us “little birds”.
It is several
hours later. The young human I mentioned earlier came to let us know that
His Majesty wished us to join him in the southern council room. No sooner
had he blurted this; he practically bolted from the room in tears. Humans
are such strange creatures, I hardly know what to think of them sometimes.
I wonder if he thought that we were going to kill him for daring to speak
to us. Jhiakyn thinks that I have overestimated his age, and puts him at
barely more than fifteen. I fear I must bow to my companion’s judgement.
I cannot place the ages of humans.
The council
was nothing more important than the King’s alert to us of the coming presence
of the dwarves the next day. I cannot say that I am overly thrilled, but,
from what I have heard of this war, we shall need every hand when we march
in a se’night. Ah, well at least our armor and swords will remain in good
repair.
Day Three- May 28th
No sign of the
dwarves. Perhaps the spring rains have delayed them. More practice with
human soldiers. I long to test my skill against a decent opponent, but
every time I use one of the forms of the blade dance, the humans become
so alarmed that I am inevitably able to beat them. If I am able to win
every battle by bluffing the goblins, we may win this war without bloodshed.
I pray that our enemy has no such art, or our allies might gawk their ways
into death. My young human keeps avoiding me. I think that he is afraid.
The remnants
of a squadron of dwarves appeared today. They said that the goblin folk
had caught them in a mountain pass, bottled them up at both ends, and held
them there until elemental reinforcements had appeared. These dwarves were
part of a group sent for help. We prepared to ride immediately, of course.
Day Five- May 30th
If I had not
seen the horror of this war with my own eyes this day, I would never have
believed what we were up against. The bodies of dwarves lie strewn about
the mountain pass, piled up so many that they block the pass in parts.
This was an honor guard, led by the dwarven king’s own son, to come and
parlay for terms of alliance in this war. Not one remained alive that we
were able to find. A number of dwarves were missing. I hope by all that
is merciful, that this means that they broke out of the trap, and headed
back towards their own homes, or that they chose not to use their hastily
erected resurrection circle. I pray that it does not mean that starving
goblin folk are no longer going hungry. The bodies! Ai, ai! The bodies
are half-intact, as if they had been frozen by elementals of ice and then
charred, horribly, torturously, by elementals of flame. I hope never to
see the like again, but if this war is all that is hinted at, this could
only be the beginning. I am used to war, but this? This is not war, this
is ...horror itself.
Day Six-May 31st
We are setting
out tomorrow for Kaasa-Dwaerin, a dwarven kingdom located in and under
the mountains King Danwyn calls the Giant’s Spine. If all goes well, we
shall press on thereafter to the city-states of the self-proclaimed “Sorcerer-Kings”.
For all their arrogance, they are supposed to be the most formidable human
and non-human wizards that have yet to live. I am very hopeful for their
aid. As wee along with fifty soldiers from King Danwyn (including my young
human I am amused to note,) and Sir Lathaeon’s little group of men, ride
to Kaasa-Dwaerin, the King himself will be exhorting his human neighbors
to join us in going to the aid of the embattled lands. It will be quite
an army, this alliance, if all goes well.
Day Ten-June 4th
Forgive me,
beloved, for not writing every day, but the riding has been hard, and there
has been little enough to report.The terrain is rocky and mountainous,
as inimical to our kind as desert is to a fish. Few trees except for several
hardy pines grow here. We follow trails barely able to allow us to ride
two abreast, and I am certain that we shall lose soldiers into the deep
ravines below us. Anyone who fell from these great heights would be so
broken on the rocks below that I am uncertain that enough pieces could
be collected for a decent burial.
My young soldier
has finally come forth and introduced himself. Apparently his name is Fenik
D’Gwaithe, and his odd moods come from his nervousness about the war, coupled
with his awe over our being close. We seem to be almost legendary in his
eyes. The sheer adoration in his eyes as we spoke, more than anything I
have ever encountered did, convinces me that we must stop being so separatist.
If our allies spend too much time gawking at the pretty elves, they will
be easy pickings for the goblin-kind. Fenik is in fact, sixteen summers
old. When he told me this I experienced a moment of utter doubt before
I recalled how quickly humans grow up. He has been watching me brush the
strokes of our letters, and seems truly interested. Perhaps I will teach
him a few words of our tongue. He seems affable enough for a human, and
better cleaned than most of them. He cannot pronounce my truename, but
instead calls me Lord Brightfire, as many of the humans do. I take no insult.
One does not push children into speaking well, but rather guides them slowly.
Day Twelve-June 6th
It has been
a hard five days of riding, but it has been worth every step of the way,
as far as I am concerned. The terrain as we climbed higher into the mountains
grew no less difficult, but we started to see dwarves, camped in cunningly
concealed lookouts, revealed only when they hailed us. Their crossbow men
could have rained bolts down on us before we ever knew that they were there.
I was reminded of the treetop forts of the Homeland, where our best archers
are said to have slain whole armies before they were even seen, back in
the Burning Times.
Our procession
into Kaasa-Dwaerin was somber, but awe-inspiring. Have we believed that
dwarves were nothing more than xenophobic, simple craftmakers who hide
in grubby caves? Earth and sky, how we’ve wronged them! Xenophobic
they may be, but simple they are not! To call their city a cave would be
to call the Taursiloriel a forest: essentially true, but hardly the whole
truth.
If not for my
guide’s assurances, I would’ve assumed that we had ridden into a blind
canyon. Two guards emerged, seemingly from the stone itself, showed only
the tiniest flicker of emotion for their fellows return, and told us much
to all our relief, that the Prince and some of his soldiers had returned.
Indeed they had been preparing to try to come through again, if necessary,
to rejoin their fellows. Then the gatekeepers opened the gates and my jaw
fell to my chest. The gate was fairly fifty feet high an one hundred feet
wide. It was incredibly well concealed, having appeared to be a part of
the rock face. Now however, it opened with a great rumble, and we saw the
lamp-lined entry-hall into Kaasa-Dwaerin. It was easily large enough for
those of us on horses to ride directly in, while the infantry marched in
behind us. Our horses were stabled, and we were told that we would be led
to the audience chamber of King Balanor Stonehammer, son of Barak Goblinsbane,
firstborn descendant of the great dwarven hero Kiron Ironaxe, (whoever
that is).
If I expected
to feel claustrophobic, I was disappointed. The great arching tunnels with
their ribbed and vaulted roofs were so high above us as to be often out
of sight. If I expected it to be dark, I was disappointed again. Lamps
hung everywhere, sometimes simple and workmanlike, but more often, beautiful
and decorative as well. In one hall, lamps suspended from the ceiling showed
the exact pattern of the stars, up to and including constellations that
can be seen above Quentari. Here, a crystal dolphin spat a glowing fluid
into a fountain of the stuff, lighting what could only be described as
a town square of sorts. If I expected there to be no view, again, I was
completely wrong. Bridges led over clear streams filled with jewel-like
fish. Grottos of natural flowstone gleamed with gems that had been set
into them in decorative patterns. The dwarven kingdom was magnificent,
not at all the miserable dirt hole that I had expected.
The audience
hall was no less breathtaking. It was a natural cavern that the dwarves
called “Earth’s Heart” and indeed we climbed so many steps going down that
I can well believe that it was! The walls, ceiling, and floor were of a
substance so black as to almost seem as if it was fashioned from darkness
itself. Set in mosaics on the walls and floor were some of the finest cut
gemstones that I had ever seen. A dragon made of chips of emerald gazed
at me with a ruby eye the size of my fist. Did we consider dwarves poor
and dreamless? Na, na, beloved. They are true artists, and rich enough
to buy us a thousand times over if one measures them by their precious
metals and gems. King Balanor sat on a throne that was made of gold and
decorated with a thousand bright diamonds, and he wore a crown of platinum,
set with a single sapphire that caught the light from the lamps, and clothed
us all in dazzling robes of blue light. Ai me, but I long to go back there,
someday, with you. Is it strange for an elf to admit that the beauty of
the dwarven kingdom has touched him? So be it.
We were given
kingly gifts indeed, as if we were masters of this hall. Robes that seemed
to have been spun from gold were thrown around our shoulders, and circlets
of silver were placed upon our brows. In addition, drinking bowls, fashioned
it seems from single gems of incredible size were placed in our hands and
filled with something that the dwarves called “Angharad” which I believe
means “Ironsmite.” An apt name it is. No sooner had Sir Lathaeon quaffed
his than he fell to the floor as if hit on the head with a hammer. If not
for our tolerance for the potent drink called “Morning Dew” I think that
Jhiakyn and I would’ve followed. Instead, we simply got marvelously drunk,
immediately. All tension between us and King Balanor simply vanished. We
chatted like old friends, and by the time we sobered up, why so we were!
It was not a poison. (I was not so foolish as to not have a healer nearby
to check, afterwards, when politeness allowed.) It was simply a marvelous,
smooth, intoxicating drink, like gulping down bellyfuls of molten fire.
After we sobered
a little, we all examined the maps that King Balanor produced. The goblins,
along with their foul, otherworldly allies had invaded the southern areas
of his underground kingdom. Liberating it would be our first real fight.
Thereafter we would push out into the area that the dwarves called “Darakhim”
or “the Doorstep”, which, I suppose, it was. Darakhim has a large indigenous
human population, including on of those Sorcerer Kings which I mentioned
earlier, a fellow by the name of Tarlov Y’Koharitan. Tarlov has been one
of the strongest proponents of alliance between the factions, and his little
city-state kingdom has been holding off the various powers arrayed against
them. For all his youth, (I am told that he is 30 years only) this Tarlov
is, apparently a powerful mage indeed! Tomorrow we shall travel to the
embattled area of Kaasa-Dwaerin, liberate it, and then continue on. I am
told that the ride will be some two days long.
Several hours
have passed since my last entry. This underground realm is very disorienting.
It is deucedly difficult to tell whether it is day of night, as we have
lost track. An ingenious little device called a water clock keeps me aware
of the passing hours, but I must learn what hour of the day it was that
we came into the kingdom.
Young Fenik
came for his first lesson in “Elftongue” as he puts it. He is a pleasant
young fellow, and very polite. In between his writing lessons, we spoke
at length about his hopes and fears for the times to come. He is terrified
to be in battle, for as the expression goes, he has never held a spear
before, let alone killed. He shows great bravery though, and like all of
the Bull’s men, he loves his king very much. He also loves a young girl
named Coria, and he showed me her picture in a locket that he carried.
She is a comely enough human, I believe, and her picture even reminded
me of you a little. Nothing specific... I do not mean that she resembled
you, just that his devotion to her made me think of you, beloved. I showed
him the little portrait of you and I that you had made for me, and he allowed
that he thought that you were the most beautiful woman that he had ever
seen, but that his lady matched his heart more closely. He has a poet’s
gift, this boy, I think, to praise another’s lady, yet stay true to his
own. I gave him a little wine to drink, and we talked at length. Jhiakyn
finds him amusing. (Like a trained squirrel, he confided to me after the
boy had gone. It was, I think, a touch unkind of him.) We spoke until late
when he retired to his barracks.
Day Thirteen- June 7th
We ride today, Beloved. I have been told that it will be two days until
we arrive where the goblin folk are. Until then, I think of you always.
Be well, Beloved.
Day Sixteen- June 10th
Forgive me,
Beloved, for my silence. I have been most bitterly embattled until now.
Tonight, I sit under the stars, and feel the wind on my face. I have time
and sanity to write once more. When I was told that the ride would be two
days, I did not pause to think that it would mean two days of travelling
through tunnels. Though the dwarven king and his people offered splendid
hospitality as we travel, my spirit began to ache for fresh air and growing
things. When we met the goblins, half a day before we expected, ah, the
fighting. To fight with no sun or moon above you, is abominable. It was
a swirling chaos of death and steel. The dwarves are excellent fighters,
and I was very glad of their presence. They would suddenly seem to melt
into the stone, to appear flanking the goblin folk. The bestial goblins
did not seem to know what had hit them. Their line was broken, and they
fled with our armies in pursuit.
It was a trap
of course. The dwarven homes now held orcs, trolls, goblins and other less
nameable beasts that poured out and attacked, hitting us from all sides.
We would have lost many men if not for the surprising valor of the humans.
In perfect unity they formed a bristling wall of spears to our rear, forcing
the humanoids back, cutting them down, or trampling them underfoot as they
led our retreat to a point of defense. Our casualties were surprisingly
low, and we rallied, slaying the goblins and their allies in droves. The
hall we fought in became slick with their black blood. We had to toss the
bodies out of the way to be able to properly fight. As it was we sent them
running, and chose not to pursue.
The next
day, we followed, checking every house as we went. It was a slow arduous
process, but we successfully avoided any further ambushes. Instead we picked
their army apart, and slew them piecemeal. The remainder fled before us,
right out the far gates and into Darakhim. We made our camp outside that
night. The dwarves remained within their halls. In a way, I pity them.
As we have been out of our element, so now, will they be out of theirs.
Still they bear this burden with stoic calm. I can only hope that we acted
as at ease while within their halls.
I was
pleased to see that my little human had not only survived his first battle,
but had done very well, earning a personal commendation from Sir Lathaeon
for his bravery. He saved two wounded fellows from an orc, single-handedly.
They now call him Fenik the Ferret, for his ferocity and speed. He seems
to have a natural charisma, and I find myself no more resistant to it than
his fellows are. I have to admit that I like this young human! He is so
full of life, and so young. I worry for him when the battles are truly
joined. Goblins are foul, indeed, but it is their elemental allies that
I most fear. I hope that he will be safe. We have no resurrection circles
under our control, except in the dwarven kingdom. I can only hope that
there will be one in Koharzin, Tarlov’s city-state, for that will be one
of our bases of attack. I am told that he is only a day’s journey away.
Day Eighteen- June 12th
We have arrived
in Koharzin, having been slowed in our travel by occasional harrying attacks
by a few of the orcs that we failed to slay in Kaasa-Dwaerin. Tarlov is
the picture of an eager young human ruler, determined to protect the people
that he loves from the ravages of the goblin horde. With good reason, he
has a lovely young wife, Jainna, and their first child; a golden boy named
Partran is only two years old. He has been a gracious host. His halls are
not full of the martial splendor of Danrayin, or the ostentatious glory
of Kaasa-Dwaerin, but instead have a homely charm that belies the fact
that Tarlov is, by all accounts, an occasionally ruthless Sorcerer King.
It is said that
a Sorceress took him prisoner when he was just a baby, the evil woman having
cast his parents, the rulers of Koharzin, down, and taken the throne for
herself. She kept Tarlov around as a pet and apprentice. When he had learned
enough, he destroyed her in a magical duel that blew the top off of the
tower. Truly, I find it difficult to reconcile the image of that fierce,
young, rebelling slave with the affable man that hosts us. With all his
good manners and pleasantries, Tarlov Y’Koharitan could easily have been
a simple scion of the court. He is a remarkable human, and I like him a
great deal. We are to wait for King Danwyn’s men to come southwest from
Danrayin’s neighbors, Boradia, Fessaryn, and Narthoclese. If all has gone
according to plan, King Danwyn will have armies and the kings of those
lands to support us. This done, we shall venture forth to collect two other
sorcerer kings who have pledged us aid, and then ride to the aid of embattled
Harkendale, the kingdom that most needs our help.
Day Twenty-three-June 17th
After too long
a wait, more soldiers have arrived, but not from the sources that we expected.
Two clans of cat folk have arrived. These “Sarr” have pledged their aid
to the alliance, and at our behest, have dispatched scouts north along
with two elven riders to try and see what has become of King Danwyn and
the promised soldiers. Their matriarchs, a pair of formidable women named
Shazza and Embora, have told us that they cam according to their prophecies
at a time when they would be needed. They asked pledges from our peoples
to aid them if trouble threatened their lands as a result of what they
did for us. We, of course, agreed. Suddenly, our alliance became comprised
of four races. There are mercenaries of various sort, of course, but mostly
Elves, Humans, Dwarves, and Sarr prepare for battle. I hope that we will
be enough.
Day Twenty-five- June 19th
The scouts returned
today, thankfully, reporting that King Danwyn and the expected help are
coming. They had been delayed by an army of ogres that had tried to besiege
the castle of King Alfdon of Boradia. We enjoyed a reunion with the
Bull, who seemed pleased to see that we had all made it. The lands
around Koharzin are full of tents now, and we will ride in two days time,
after the armies of our allies have rested.
Yong Fenik is
progressing nicely with his calligraphy lessons, and I am surprised by
his knack for the skill of writing. He has revealed that he does read and
write a little of the common human tongue, and that makes it easier for
him. He seemed a little dismayed to learn that unlike the twenty-six characters
of Common, the Tengwar has thirty-six characters, poor lad. Ah, but he
is quick, and he’s learning.
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Day Twenty-six- June 20th
I had my official
introduction to the masters of Boradia, Fessaryn, and Narthoclese today. They
are as unlike as could be. It is hard to believe that they rule three countries
within spitting distance of one another.
King Alfdon of
Boradia is most like Danwyn. He is a huge man with a bushy red beard and eyebrow
that rise like fire from his brow. He is much like Danwyn in temperament too,
being jovial and pleasant of company, if a little too companionable and familiar
at times. He has a tremendously large maul, which he carries, and apparently
fights with, two handed, sweeping it in a deadly arc to crush his foes. I am
sure that he and the Bull will be wrestling before the day is out.
Queen Nimrost of
Fessaryn is as strong a warrior as any of her male counterparts. I wonder if the
humans, with their occasional forays into old courtesy don’t drive her mad by
treating her with less respect. She is apparently a decent caster of celestial
magicks as well, though nowhere near the ability of the Sorcerer Kings, which we
go to meet. She makes me think of a strong Quentari telcontari, with her black
hair cut short and plaited with a net of silver to keep it still under a helmet
when she goes into battle.
King Sithian of
Narthoclese is the most enigmatic of these. He seems to be a warrior, as well,
but he prefers to keep to himself. My impression of him, at the dinner where we
met, was one of a weasel. He stayed as long as politeness required, then made
his apologies and retired to his room. I am told that he is not so much a
warrior as a caster of earth magicks, but that he is a brilliant tactician. I
hope so, for all our sakes. Ah, well, if nothing else, he has brought with him
some several hundred much-needed soldiers.
Day Twenty-seven- June 21st
We took our leave of
Koharzin today, accompanied by Tarlov Y’Koharitan, and his men. I have
discovered that this is not so much a surname as a title, meaning “son of the
house of Kohar,” and implying his rulership over Koharzin. The parting between
Tarlov and his lady was very painful and full of tears. He vowed to return. Both
Tarlov and Jainna kept brave faces, but Tarlov wept when she was out of sight
and I do not doubt that she did the same. This is the first time that they have
been apart, truly, since his marriage, and he worries for her. Their kingdom is
very tiny, and there is a surfeit of precious things in it, but it is
strategically important. It would be an obvious target if the goblins and their
ilk were better organized. Fortunately they are not, and the rest of us offer
reassurances for the safety of his wife and son. He is obviously a very devoted
husband and father. I hope that we will be able to deliver him back to them
safely, for truly, he rides into much greater danger than he leaves them in.
I shall not be
writing for a few days, beloved, as there are likely to be dull days of long and
difficult riding ahead of us as we go to Arrak, the capital of Harkendale.
Its ruler, King Baessor, will be glad of the relief I am sure, and we will
not rest, but enter directly into battle with the hordes. Know that, as I ride
into battle, I keep you in my heart.
Day Thirty-one- June 25th
Ah, Beloved, but I
miss you. I miss our Homeland, and I miss peace, always. We have met the enemy
and it was much worse than we ever feared. The seemingly endless hordes of
goblins, orcs, and their kind are bad enough, but when the elementals take the
field, it is enough to make one wish to flee. We fought them today, my beloved
Shaellorin, and I was gladdened beyond measure that you were not here to see how
horrible it was. Rank upon rank of goblins rode against us, and we fought them
using tactics that have slain them for centuries. Then, when the elementals came
into play, it was like trying to fight the wind, or slay a lake. How can one
hope to defeat these creatures? Thank every merciful power that there is that we
had mages on our side, for without the powers of Tarlov, and Lady Namarieao, we
would surely have been lost.
I faced a creature of
pure elemental fire in single combat, and it was only through my magickal
protections and the enchantments upon my sword Thiselaine, that I survived the
experience. It was like looking into the heart of a volcano and challenging it
to single combat. I was exhausted, and felt the pain of my burns keenly
thereafter.
We took many
casualties. I was heartsickened to find that our army had been broken in two.
The units of different peoples not used to fighting alongside of one another had
allowed a squadron of trolls to get into their middle. Jhiakyn, Sir Lathaeon and
myself managed to slay the creatures, but we had lost many men. Ah, my little
human was slain. His spirit even now travels back to Koharzin to be raised. We
camp here, awaiting the return of those soldiers that we have lost in battle.
Tarlov has contacted two more sorcerer kings and these mysterious apparently did
agree to aid us, but no one appeared. Tarlov told us to wait, and that they
would appear when they were needed. We try to keep up our faith and spirits, but
the nights are long, and we worry about our soldiers being slain before they can
rejoin us. We have sent riders with their equipment so that they will march from
Koharzin armed for battle, at least.
Day Thirty-three- June 27th
Our soldiers have
returned, including to my relief, young Fenik. I was certain that his spirit
would have the strength to return, but I worried for him nonetheless. We march
this very day for Arrak once more.
Day Thirty-five- June 29th
We arrived in Arrak
today. I cannot say that the country is pretty, although it might once have
been. Most of Harkendale has been at war and under siege since the thaws began,
and the land shows the terrible toll that has been taken upon it. We have been
engaged in a running fight almost from the borders of Harkendale to its
beleaguered capital. Ah, beloved, there has never been a war like this before. I
sincerely hope that there never is again. I have fought my way through streets
grown slick with frozen blood, and stood atop the bodies of dead children to
make my stand against the powers that we face.
At first, we fought
only ogres, and trolls, with goblin archers peppering our ranks here and there.
Ultimately these monsters fell back, allowing a veritable array of elementals
forward to do battle with us. Full three score elementals of flame strode forth
flanked by two score elementals of earth. Once more I felt a keen note of thanks
that Tarlov was with us, for his powers against elementals are quite formidable.
As elementals of flame came forth, he pulled the powers of ice from the stars
and hurled it in vast storms against them. I personally slew three earth
elementals, and beloved, I can tell you that I ache all over. Their blows felt
like the force of mountains were behind them. Once again if it were not for the
strength of my good Thiselaine, I would surely have been slain. If you ever wish
to experience what it is like to fight and elemental of earth, pick a good-sized
mountain and fling yourself at it repeatedly. If it crumbles, you’ve won. If you
crumble...
The saddest news from
this entire foray is that we arrived too late to aid the king of Harkendale.
Baessor’s widow, a sad matronly woman named Queen Lorana d’Wynter, came to the
gates to meet us. She informed us that her husband had passed away due to wounds
inflicted upon him by elementals of water, which had forced themselves down into
his lungs and half-drowned him before they had been slain. Her coronation as
Queen and monarch in her own right will be held tomorrow. She then intends to
ride in Baessor’s place. She is most welcome. I have lost thirty-seven elves,
all told, and the rest of the armies have taken worse casualties than have we.
Any reinforcements will be welcome at this time.
Day Thirty-six- June 30th
We stood witness
today at Queen Lorana’s full coronation. She leaves her infant son, Prince Anwyn
behind, in the care of nurses and Knight Protectors. No shrinking violet is she.
No sooner had the crown been placed upon her head, than she traded it for a
helm, chose a spear, buckled on her armor, and rode with us.
It seems that the
goblins hold a critical pass in a small ridge of maintains called the Three
Points. If we can break their hold there, aid might come to us from two kingdoms
from the south, Naphyl, and Onarion. Then we can ride in unity and alliance to
the aid of Zhaffiria, Sir Lathaeon’s kingdom, where this whole mess began.
According to what we have heard, no humans remain there, only ruined buildings,
now held by the goblin armies. Apparently a great orc chieftain named Thurgor
and a troll shaman named Maggalak the Red have set this up as their base. If the
reports are true, they have sent most of the living armies over to fight others,
while they slowly amassed an army of undead under Maggalak’s control. If we can
overthrow them we will have won, and we can go home. We ride tonight for Three
Points Pass. We know that we have days of riding, and Harkendale Plain, where we
ride, is said to be held by a powerful force of elementals. Our spirits are low,
but we must press on if we are to end this war.
My little soldier is
doing well for himself. He has proven very charismatic, and has been made a
sergeant over a small squad of men. They call him a hero, for he saved his
commander in the fight on the way here. I fear for him. Heroes rarely die of old
age.
Day Thirty-nine- July 3rd
A brief respite, my
beloved, in this nightmare, and so I write to you. The report of elementals on
the plains could not begin to describe the situation. As we rode out, we came
suddenly upon the drowned bodies several of our scouts, who had been missing.
Before we realized what this meant, the placid brook we rode beside erupted into
horror. Men, elves, and dwarves were dragged to their watery deaths. As we leapt
to their aid, living whirlwinds appeared, seizing our men, hurling them into the
sky, and allowing them to fall to their shattering deaths. The bodies were
falling half a mile away. I have never seen the like, except at the claws of the
gryphon riders. We retreated, regrouping further northwesterly along the plains.
Our plans recomposed,
we marched in, allowing Prince Tarlov, Lady Namarieao, and Queen Nimrost to take
the fore. Their magicks struck heavy losses among the elementals, as the
monstrosities of air and water sought to attack them, those of us with magickal
weapons fell among them hewing and slaying all that we could. The battle raged
off and on for three days. We have finally taken the plains, making them fall
before us. We expect to be at Three Points in three days, if all goes well.
Day Forty- July 4th
Why did I say what I
said? “If all goes well” must be one of the foulest and most accursed sentences
in any language. No one should ever say it. To do so inevitably invites the
touch of chaos on any undertaking in which you may engage.
No sooner had I
closed my journal than a full legion of ogres appeared with ten-score trolls to
back them. They fell easily enough to such as Tarlov, Jhiakyn, and myself, but
they wreaked havoc amongst our ranks, so that we must divert precious resources
to their destruction. This left us vulnerable to the more dangerous elementals.
We fought for hours, until our arms felt like lead. Then like a receding storm,
they retreated as their aforementioned allies came upon us. Worse than this was
yet to come!
You will recall
that rat-like King Sithian that I mentioned? Well, I knew that there was
something I disliked about him. Apparently his joining our alliance was a ruse
to further the ends of the powers of Chaos and Destruction. No sooner did the
elementals of ice and air come upon us, but his men began to hew at us from
behind, slaying by poison and treachery. Worse still, Elementals of Chaos and
Destruction appeared to aid them. Only a few, but by all that’s good and green,
when your troops are as weak and weary as ours a few is all that are needed. We
slew them, of course, but not without cost. Nearly all of our life spells are
depleted, and the little traitor managed to scuttle away before I could show him
what it means to betray the scions of Quentari, I will slay him, beloved. I vow
it!
Our troops are camped
yet again, awaiting the resurrection of the troops that we lost to this
murderous rogue. I saw his face, beloved. There was an inhuman glee behind his
eyes as he betrayed us. He not only violated us; he did it for pleasure. May
Fate grant his scrawny neck comes within reach of my gauntlets.
Day Forty-one- July 5th
Troubles upon
troubles. This is surely our darkest day. Reports have come to us from our
returning troops that the kingdoms to the north have fallen under attack. Prince
Tarlov is beside himself with fear that Koharzin may be besieged. He has
promised to stay until he can summon the other sorcerer kings. Thereafter, he
intends to leave with his soldiers at once for his home, to see what may be
seen. He has sworn to rejoin us as quickly as circumstances will allow, but we
all feel that he is betraying us, deserting us as surely as Sithian did. No
doubt he feels the same, for we have refused to march the entire alliance back
to aid his little city. Our troops are too demoralized and hurt to make the
forced trek he wishes us to make. Truly, I pity him.
His brow is deeply creased with worry and pain. I swear, were he not oathed
to us to stay until the other sorcerers come, I believe he would ride, alone if
necessary, to his lady’s aid. I pray that she and the little prince are
unharmed.
Day Forty-three- July 7th
Here is the
first bit of good news in a long time. The aid that Tarlov promised has arrived.
The sorcerer-kings are impressive creatures, and one is a Quentari! A lady
named Quel’thalass came among us this day, her long dark hair braided back into
a warrior’s knot. I tried to quiz her on how she had come to leave the Homeland,
but she kept finding excuses to be elsewhere. The other is a mysterious fellow
in a deeply hooded robe. He does not speak, and Quel’thelass refers to him as
Lord Silence. I cannot tell if she means it as a joke.
Tarlov has gone, as
quickly as we had all guessed that he would. No sooner had we met with the other
two than he sped off, with his soldiers following as best they can. Ultimately,
I find that I cannot blame him. Were our situation reversed, were it you and
Quentari being menaced, I fear that my vaunted ideals of alliance might quickly
fall by the wayside. I wish him luck on his journey.
Day Forty-four- July 8th
We are within sight of
Three Points Ridge. One can see the armies of the enemy stretched before the
pass like black ants in the sand. I am so tired. Tired of this war, which in a
few spans of days, hardly more than an elf’s blink, as the humans say, has
wearied me more than any other, more civilized and comprehensible wars that took
years to accomplish. Nothing is simple about this war. I long for good green
grass under my feet, and good golden leaves over my head. I have a dark feeling
tonight, as if death is standing over my right shoulder. I fear that there may
not be another journal entry. If not, farewell my beloved. Know that whatever
Ryfellyn says, I love you more than life itself. Farewell. Namarie.
Day Forty-five- July 9th
I live, but only with
great sickness in my heart. We have won, but at a terrible cost. Jhiakyn is
dead. I mourn one who might have been my brother. I will write no more this eve.
Day Forty-eight- July 12th
This journal has sat
deeply tucked into my pouch, and I might not have touched it at all, ever again,
but for that I must leave a memorial for my dearest and oldest friend. There is
an ache in my spirit, and the loss of one that I have loved as my own blood
fills me with anguish. I tended his bier, as I tended his cradle as a child. I
grieve that a splendid fire, so brightly burning has been extinguished.
Brightfire, do they call me? Ah, then, Shining Star was Jhiakyn, my brother in
all but blood. Now his star is fallen, and I cannot help but weep.
More painful still,
is the knowledge that the blow was meant for me. Ten elementals of ice ringed us
around, and we fought them back with blade and magic. Then when my magicks no
longer protected me, a fearsome ice-beast threw a chunk of pure elemental ice at
my blind side. It would most surely have crushed open my skull like a walnut.
Poor, brave Jhiakyn saw it, and though no magicks protected him, he leapt in
front of the deadly missile, letting it take him instead. I called for a healer,
even as I smote the beast, but my voice was hoarse from crying out orders, and
none heard. Chunks of ice fell, becoming red and melting into his flowing blood.
I tried to aid him, to administer a potion that would save his life, but he just
slipped away, his blood staining the parched earth. We waited in vain at the
crudely erected resurrection circle that Lord Silence had created. The fragments
of valiant Jhiakyn’s spirit were so frail that they blew like milkweed to the
healer’s touch. Never before has death touched me so closely. I am ready to slay
a thousand elementals to see this war over and done. I wish to be home, and free
of this onus.
Yet I cannot desert
my friends, for so I have come to think of the brave kings and queens, wizards
and knights that I now fight beside. I have come to value Balanor and Lathaeon,
Danwyn and Tarlov, and little Fenik. I cannot allow them to fight alone. This
eve, we, the generals of our armies, the kings and queens, have taken a
blood-bound oath to see this war through, or die trying. We shall have the peace
of Victory, or the peace of Death, and there will be no surrender, on either
side. We have a price in blood to extract. We seek payment of tenfold what has
been taken from us.
With the pass
held by our forces, we can go on to Naphyl and Onarion, then at last to
Zhaffiria. When that last ruined kingdom is cleansed of the blight of goblin
folk and elemental, we shall go home, content in our hard-won peace.
Day Forty-nine- July 13th
As the days pass, I
find the memories of Three Point Ridge easier to bear, and I must set down two
things of that battle.
Firstly, I have never
been so fond of dwarves in my entire life. Balanor’s people are a thousand times
the craftsmen of war that I had given them credit for. The goblins had erected
walls within the pass to hold us back, but within an hour, the dwarves had
crafted, virtually out of nothing but weapons and scraps, a siege engine capable
of smashing it down. Even as we took the foe from the rear, Balanor led the
dwarves through some carefully concealed tunnels, came up in their very midst,
and hacked them apart from within, even as Sithian had tried to do to us. An
hour more and they had rebuilt the goblins’ walls a thousand times stronger, and
fashioned clever traps and defenses to keep the enemy from coming through the
pass behind us. We may have to deal with those hordes on the way back, but we
shall not have to fear a stab from the back while our dwarven brethren are with
us.
Secondly, I have
never been so proud of my own troops. The archers backed our infantry perfectly,
and when the goblins charged, they found our walls of shields and spears an apt
barrier for their wave to crash upon. No sooner had they fallen to rout than our
battlemages cast spells upon them with such ferocity that the enemy fled...right
into the hands of the dwarves! Our two peoples have never fought so well, side
by side. It is good for us to drink wine together as brothers, rather than glare
at each other across the fire as reluctant allies. The Sarr do not join our
revelry, but the humans seem glad enough of our celebrations. The cat folk are
aloof, and the two Sorcerer Kings or (Queens as in Quel ‘thalass’ case) are more
apart still. Ah, well, they are here, and their matriarchs, for all that they do
not seem fond of us, are reliable and good tacticians to work with. I am proud
of our alliance, and I have a great deal of respect for Sir Lathaeon for
bringing us all together. Mark my words, that young human will have a dragon
watching him if he keeps this up...
Day Fifty- July 14th
As we crossed the
borders into Naphyl, we were met by the combined armies of, and introduced to
the brother Kings Mantarus and Merus. The brothers had grown up as rivals, but
now as adults, had become fast friends. Their two kingdoms had ridden out to aid
us at the pass. They were joyful to find us hale and hearty, and began the ride
east towards our final battle in Zhaffiria. Both brothers are likable sorts, if
not as earthy as Danwyn or Alfdon. They are scholar-soldiers, and have never
truly been at war before. I fear that if all goes as it has been, they shall
learn quickly enough.
Day Fifty-two- July 16th
We have been reunited
with Prince Tarlov, but I fear that the meeting was not merry. We found the
Sorcerer King, missing his army, waiting for us at the crossroads. He looked
haggard and pale, as if he had not slept since last we had seen him. His news
was dark indeed. He had returned to Koharzin to find the castle breached and all
within slain. The bodies of his beloved Jainna and Partran had been recovered
from the smoking ruin, marks of death upon them showing obviously that she had
been burned to death, while his babe had been frozen solid in his crib. The
nightmare of this find is etched clearly upon his face, and he seems only half a
man, thirsting for the vengeance he needs to absolve himself of arriving too
late. We all tried to offer him some comfort, but he will have none of it, and I
do not find that I can blame him. Had he gone home when first he had heard the
news, he might have arrived in time to save them. He never speaks of this. I see
him looking around the encampment of the alliance, and I can almost hear him
think it aloud. I pray that he along with his fellow sorcerer kings will be able
to aid us when we get to Zhaffiria. He seems grief-mad now, as I was when
Jhiakyn was slain, but I feel something dangerous moving below the surface of
the man. He is a walking tempest, waiting to unleash his fury on whatever
provokes him first. All of our men, recalling the power he has brought to bear
in previous battles, have given him a wide berth. He for his part, seeks no
mortal company to ease his lonely heart. He haunts the edges of our encampment
like a ghost, and there is death in his eyes. I think that he seeks simply to
end. I hope that he can be brought back from the edge of death, and saved. I
truly do.
Day Fifty-five- July 19th
We are much closer to
Zhaffiria, I was told today. We need only to cross a rolling hilly area called
the Highpoint Plains. Another few days should put us within the kingdom’s
borders. Then we shall be within sight of the end of this painful war.
We fought a skirmish
today. I hesitate to call it a battle, for it was so horribly short. A group of
war orcs, flanked by elementals, rose up to attack us. Suddenly for the first
time since he returned to us, we saw Tarlov come out of his stupor. Along with
the other sorcerer kings, he annihilated the enemy, laying utterly to waste
every creature that fell within his path. I swear that if any of our soldiers
had strayed before him, they would have been slain as well. Orcs, elementals,
trolls and goblins alike fell before his murderous outpouring of sheer power. In
that moment, I can tell you, I feared him. Anyone who hates that much is capable
of any evil that can be conceived of in the dark depths of a black heart. I fear
that we will lose Tarlov, and somehow this prospect strikes me ice cold in my
veins. There is an infection in his spirit, far worse and more dangerous than
any ailment of the flesh. I worry that before my lifetime is done, I shall face
Tarlov Y’Koharitan across a battlefield. With what I have seen of him this day,
I do not know if I could defeat him. There is surely not enough rage and hatred
in the whole of Quentari to match that contained within this wounded man’s
heart.
Still, at least we
won fairly bloodlessly on our side. We lost not a single soldier despite the
numbers that we fought.
Day Sixty- July 24th
We have crossed the
borders of Zhaffiria, and the battle for the end of this war is truly joined at
last. We have been met by legions of undead, squadrons of trolls, and the mystic
might of elemental forces. Somewhere, behind them all, are Thurgor and Maggalak
the Red, and when these darknesses are laid bare to the pure light, we shall
have won, and I shall return to you, beloved.
Day Sixty-seven- July 31st
Far faster than
I could have hoped, it is over. Thurgor is dead, and Maggalak has fled into the
mountains. It may be that he and his kind will threaten those lands again. For
now they are quelled.
I have no doubt that
in the annals of history, if it is remembered at all, it will be called the
battle of Red Marshes. We were crossing an area called the Salt Marshes of
Kameryn when undead rose up from the water to attack. We quickly dispatched the
beasts, but more came, seeking our blood, and now living foes joined the dead.
Our enemies had no idea the monstrous power of destruction that now lies deep in
the heart of Prince Tarlov. They could never have guessed that in a short span
of weeks, a group of disparate forces had become a single army, capable of great
attacks of unity and cooperation. The Salt Marshes are now saltier for the vast
amount of blood spilt within them. Goblin blood has mingled with human, and elf
blood floats beside the ichor that fills the bodies of elementals. I will leave
it to the historians to tell the tale. I will leave it to my official report to
the Aran to describe the tactics, but I will say this. For a short span of time,
humans fought alongside elves and dwarves and sarr called each other cousin.
Sorcerer kings stood shoulder to shoulder with peasant- born spearmen, and a
great elven general fought side by side with a little human soldier. And we won.
Our victory was not
without casualties. I will be returning to Quentari without the esteemed Lady
Namarieao Vassyrallisa, and with only some half of the brave scions of Quentari
that I marched out with. The others have fared no better than we. Boradia and
Onarion mourn their kings tonight, and the Sorcerer kings are without Lord
Silence. Matriarch Shazza must now learn to fight without her right eye and we
fear that Sir Lathaeon will never walk again. Prince Tarlov has not only lost
his family, but his left hand as well, and the pain of the injury seems to have
shocked him out of his stupor, but not to have lessened his rage. He blames the
healers amongst us for failing to save the hand, and at dawn he intends to leave
us to the cleaning up, and return to Koharzin. It is my hope that on the long
ride, he will have time to think, and will realize that he has no more right to
blame us for the loss of his hand than he has to blame himself for the loss of
his wife and son. If not, I fear the infection that I see in his heart will
spread, and consume him.
Saddest of all our
losses, to me, was a simple soldier of King Danwyn’s. I had truly come to value
the company of Fenik D’Gwaithe. I attended his funerary rites, in which king
Danwyn posthumously awarded him the rank of Lieutenant. He died saving the men
under his command, sacrificing himself so that they would live. They stood about
the pyre, looking sheepish and awkward. What a waste, that he died for them. He
was worth ten of them.
La, no, beloved. That
is wrong of me. Each of them had parents. Each of them might have a locket,
showing the face of the girl that he loves... I haven’t the right to pass
judgement on them.
Fenik’s locket I have
saved from the fire, and I shall place it into the hands of the pretty young
Coria and tell her that he loved her to the end. As I do with you. I am not
going to set anything more down in writing. Some things are too painful to
record with words, for words fail to say what needs to be said. When reading
them, the author feels more keenly the failure. Jhiakyn’s death, Prince Tarlov’s
loss, my child soldier’s valiant end, each of these puts a hole into my heart. I
find that rereading those sections of this journal, that I have failed to do
each of them justice. I will not wrong
them further, but choose instead, to end.
I will return
to Quentari as swift as I can, beloved, once this errand that I have set
for myself is done. Until then, I remain as always, ever faithful to you.
Morathak
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